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I heard laughter, then sadness. Running my hand over the books, emotions seeped out. I kept walking, letting my fingers side over the covers, then one book caught my eye, it looked full to over flowing with happiness and pleasant thoughts. I took it off the shelf and let it fall open in my hands. Memories now replaced book shelves. I looked around, I was at a Christmas family gathering. Everyone one is smiling, laughing, and joyful, the type of family gathering that you would read about in a story book, but this was no fairy tale, no, this was reality in hindsight.

In thought I pondered..... how many of us actually put aside time to worship our Creator? How many of us even think about that? Am I a distraction for my family in this area? Could I be exemplifying this area in my life more? Or is that part of the intimacy between Jesus and His children? When am I ever prostrate on the floor in fear and awe of Him?

 

  Then the Philistines took the ark of God and brought it into the house of Dagon and set it up beside Dagon.

And when the people of Ashdod rose early the next day, behold, Dagon had fallen face downward on the ground before the ark of the Lord. So they took Dagon and put him back in his place.

But when they rose early on the next morning, behold, Dagon had fallen face downward on the ground before the ark of the Lord, and the head of Dagon and both his hands were lying cut off on the threshold. Only the trunk of Dagon was left to him.   





1 Samuel 5:2-4(ESV)

And whenever the unclean spirits saw him, they fell down before him and cried out, “You are the Son of God.”

Mark 3:11 (ESV)

 

When he saw Jesus, he cried out and fell down before him and said with a loud voice, “What have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? I beg you, do not torment me.”

Luke 8:28 ( ESV)

 

 Then Jehoshaphat bowed his head with his face to the ground, and all Judah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem fell down before the Lord, worshiping the Lord.

2 Chronicles 20:18 (ESV)

 

Since when did I get 'old enough' to not give Jesus the praise and worship He deserves?

Jesus has given us a choice as humans to accept His life giving salvation or to reject it, He much prefers the former. When I accepted the gift of salvation at the age of seven, I didn't know the consequences. I didn't realize that sitting at Jesus' feet would give me strength and revive my soul. I didn't really know that sin grieves Jesus, that He weeps over it, that it breaks His heart.





 

When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.

 1 Corinthians 13:11 (ESV)

 

But now the fact that I'm not as innocent anymore and do know these things, requires active obedience to Jesus Christ and a willing and surrendered heart, fully devoted to Him for all my days. It also requires discipline, to make Jesus my first priority, to intentionally spend time with Him, and have Jesus as first in my life.

Grow ever closer to Jesus.  



{{Who's Desires}}

There are few things that I like better then to sit on my bed with the sun beams coming through the window, softly laying their warmth on my floor, a mug in my hand filled with chia tea, hot chocolate, mocha, apple cider, or whatever my taste buds crave that day, and a good book laying on my lap.
Sadly this is basically 'in my dreams' and has happened maybe twice in my life time!
When the chance arises, and the opportunity places itself in my hands this is what happens....
I (Regan) open one eye to view the alarm clock that is before me in my groggy 'don't tell me its morning already' state, turn my iPod on, close my eyes as Paul Washer starts to exhort me in the ways of Romans 12, I don't want to miss anything and don't want to pause it to get tea, so I slowly get ready for the day listening to him, no good books, no soft sun light, just groggy me trying to remember every word he preaches (which consisted of "the holy spirits path is discernible in the lives He touches" totally profound, if you think about it, yup I had to listen to it again, and again and....... again!) Even this rarely happens!

             Why is it that I have my perfect ideals, and yet the most touching, profound, and meaningful moments that God has put in my life have not changed my 'this is perfect', 'this is the way it should be done' ideas. Do I still trust Him with my life? Yes. Have I so let the world into my head and change my thinking, my ideals? Yes, probably more then I know. Yes it says that God will "give me the desires of my heart', but in C.S. Lewis's book the Voyage of the Dawn Treader in the part when they come to the place where ALL your dreams come true, do I think that ALL my thoughts have been pure, honorable, upright, and actually worthy of being given? No. Jesus Christ didn't die to give me the desires of my human heart, He died to make His desires mine. With that in mind, even though I think I know what should happen in my future, I want my heart so in tune with Jesus', that it burns with His desires.      

 

~these are a few of my favorite things~

 

 

//these are a few of my favorite things//

//Remember//

As days go by I am daily reminded that this life is but a breath of wind, a vapor; there are few that are remembered after death, but I am also reminded things can look so important in the moment, and as hindsight is 20-20, looking back you wonder why you worried. As I look back over the past year, I wonder why I worried, as I knew, and know, that God has every thing in control.
                   Matthew 6:34                   
                   Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,                                       for tomorrow will worry about itself.                                                                                  Each day has enough trouble of its own.
                     

As human nature compels us into a worried state, Jesus says 'sit on my lap do not worry rest your head on my shoulder, as this world is spinning in emotional turmoil, Jesus says remember I Am the same yesterday, today, and forever, I know all things that were and are and going to be, why do you worry my child?', as your head spins with all that is going on in this world and you don't know how to handle it, Jesus says fight:

                                                             2 Corinthians 10:4 

                  The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. 

                    On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.

May we remember that physical death of God's saints does not end in death, but life, glorious life.

May we tremble when we think of our Holy, awesome and powerful Lord.

May we be broken and humble in front of our God, we can not do anything.

May we realize His heart for this lost and broken world.........

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I realized today how blessed I am to be apart of a large family! My uncle is departing soon to Australia to do missions there, today was the last time seeing him before he leaves on the 2 year journey in Down Under.
How I take that all for granted. I'm always surrounded by family at basically every holiday, they all live near by and yet all are friends and companions. When one leaves the fold we all notice. It hurts a little bit, we cry a little bit, we hug and then they are gone.... yet this time for some reason it was just a little bit easier,(for me) with the knowledge that he and us all are under Christ's ever present gaze, that even though we are now going to live our lives on opposite ends of the world (if you look at the globe the right way!) He has our lives in His hands and even if He calls us home in that time frame (praying against that..) We will meet again! Although I hope I won't have time to chit chat up in Heaven about Australia... I want to be kneeling in front of the glorious throne of JESUS CHRIST MY LORD!!!!!!!  As I was reminded on Sunday there is absolutely no greater place!!