a learning process

On one camping trip, this summer, God revealed something to me (or it finally got through my thick skull!)

My soul, wait silently for God alone....
Psalm 62:5

For You, O God, have tested us; You have refined us as silver is refined.

Psalm 66:10

 

 

I had a interesting learning experience that happened to drag through the whole summer. It was one of those things where you just keep learning and growing through a series of events! It pushed me to need to know if I wait for God alone. It was a serious test. Not in the fact that I struggled to know that Jesus is who I turn to when tests and trials come, but in the aspect of how I reacted physically, with friends and family.

I love and respect my Dad and sisters! They have always been there for me. Something that I've always found hard to take though from them is rebuke. And as they would rebuke me, I started distancing myself from them. I still loved them, and really I didn't even realize that I was doing it, it was a slow fade.

 

I got some good relationship advice today from a gentleman I really respect, he told me to just be honest. Just be honest. Honestly (no pun intended) if you aren't honest (again no pun intended) and truthfully forthright with those you love, it is hard to live in harmony with one another.

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight.

Romans 12:16

 

I was trying to be wise in my own sight, most of the time this summer. If I had humbled myself and listened to what those that are wiser then me tried to tell me, I would've saved a lot of heartache. Thankfully, through that first verse and a few others, and my family, I saw where I was headed, and started to turn around.

O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
    and you have healed me.

 O Lord, you have brought up my soul from Sheol;
    you restored me to life from among those who go down to the pit.

 Sing praises to the Lord, O you his saints,
    and give thanks to his holy name.

 Psalm 30:2-4

I need to keep remembering that God isn't done with me yet, that I will continue to make mistakes, and learn. In the process of my life, I want people to look at me and say "That is a woman after God's heart" and that they would see Jesus, not Regan Wiebe.

My convictions are strong, I pray that I'll be able (through God's strength) to carry through with them.